I'm Back

Blogging came to a screeching halt as I was the Momma to 5 beautiful kiddos...well my being back is with great sadness and heart break...we are back down to our two amazing kiddos.  Without going into great detail I can tell you that family has surfaced that desires to have the kids and so after 16 months we said goodbye.  I can't even begin to explain what has gone on in our hearts and minds and even the physical sickness I have felt at the loss of our the kids we have grown to love.  I can say with certainty that God has made His hand on our lives so very clear...once we knew when the kids would leave us our house sold after only being on the market for one month by owner and we were able to buy our dreamy home at the same time...it was nothing short of a miracle.  I am thankful that God did not have me move my babies out of our home...we all left.  I trust God knew that would be more than I could take...and so on July 3 we said our good bye and by July 19 we closed on both homes.  God is still good and I can still say that through my tears.
Our family would do this all over again, we learned to love those that were not our own, we learned what it means to hold our children with open hands knowing that no matter how much we love them there is One who loves them even more and will be faithful to meet every one of their needs.  Our kids have a new found thankfulness for their stable home and a Papa and Momma that love them.  We did what we never thought possible...had we known ahead of time how hard this would be I would have told you we were not strong enough...but we are in awe of what God is capable of in spite of our weakness.
I could really go on and on with all that was great, all that was hard, all that drives me insane with the social system:)...but I'll spare y'all my rantings!
I'll be trying to pick up where I left off so you'll have to bear with me as I sort through a million pictures from the last year!